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| October 2007 |
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I find life to be a constant contrast of joy and sorrow, laughter and tears, peaks and valleys, darkness and light. The days are sunny and warm and the nights are cold and dark. So dark here that you can ‘t see a hand in front of you, yet the stars are the most brilliant I have ever seen in my lifetime. It is a contrast that reminds me of my vision quest where, in the four days and four nights of no food and no water and no contact with people, I felt the most joy yet the deepest sorrow, the strongest and the most weak, the most confident and the most insecure all within my time in that sacred place.
This fall has been the most joyous and the saddest. The joy is that Amy and I got married at one of our most special places, Bear Pond. We kayaked across Little Clear Pond, carried to Green Pond, crossed to a carry to Little Long Pond and then paddled that to the carry into Bear Pond. After all that portaging and paddling Amy still wanted to get married. Ha!!! I found the right woman. On our journey she said, “Isn’t this just like a relationship? There are hills to climb and hard work to get where you are going, then beautiful calm parts where you just can enjoy the view and relax. This trek to Bear Pond is like a relationship and like life.” It was a great way to start, and a great place to speak our vows and have our commitment ceremony. We are so excited about being married and our commitment to each there. Click
here to see our wedding picture. The sadness is that my best friend Charlie, who I sing about in my song, “Looking For America,” has passed away into the spirit world. He got diagnosed with cancer a little less than a year ago. The two operations he underwent were tough on him and he never quite got his strength back. Then the cancer came back. It aggressively took over his body, and he was in great pain at the end. But like Charlie always has been, he never complained. He had always taken everything life dealt him and faced it head on with strength and integrity. I hope to have half the courage and poise when I face that part of my life. Some people in my life are in my heart and I love them very much. Others have become a part of my heart and I love them more deeply than words can say and I feel them in everything I do. That was Charlie. He will forever be my brother, and my friend, and will live forever in the memory of my heart. I wrote a song about the Chas Man for after he was gone. It is called “Sky Rider.” I was telling him about it a few days before he passed away, and, like all things Charlie, he said, “Well, you gotta sing it for me now, I won’t be able to hear it when I am gone.” You can see a picture of Charlie, read the lyrics, and listen to “Sky Rider” by clicking here. I hope all is well in your world. Again, thanks so much for supporting me and my music, and I hope to see you out there at one of my concerts in the not too distant future. Amy says hi. Love from here in my mountains. 
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